Monday, February 21, 2005

confused

I am confused and asking the big question now -- what do i want off life.
This is some gazzilion years so late, but if it consoles - better late than never.

There is sooo much to do; and the art of engineering is just not satisfying. There seems to be a insatiable quest for knowledge. I just cannot get enough knowledge abt computer science alone -- the practical part in me shouts out to stop spending time and money into stuff, which I will have nothing to do.

The human brain is a strange thing - there is a thin line between dreams and halucination. how can you be sure that whatever you are dreaming is not real - reality just is an entity which comes to you when you wake up - till the time you are dreaming - the dream is in a real dimension.

But if the defination of real is so fickle, why is it so important for us to know - why the insatiable quest for knowledge - is it not that I am running after a mirage of reality - this is a oxymoron (mirage of reality).

The only thing that seems to be calming me is Pink Floyd with "Wish you were here".

So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell, blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail? A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts? Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze? Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year,
Running over the same old ground. What have you found? The same old fears.
Wish you were here.


I need to sleep.
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Monday, February 14, 2005

complete cycle

Its been an year I have been blogging.

Yapppy Valentines Day to you too :)

cynical me
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ps: as if life had to come a complete cycle(read post)-i did get a new machine today with half gig ram and 2.8 GHz of pentium ht technology in a small tin box. Life is good :) Once I get on Linux to this baby, it will be better. :)

Friday, February 04, 2005

lame ideas

I just had a lame idea to write about the two utmost boring words that any language have ...

"Aur kya" ... or what else ... buts whats the point .. :)

I am getting a lot of other lame ideas also -- but I leave most for the rest of the blogs.


Amongst the things happening:

* I am planning to go over to Mumbai next week
* BITS mid-terms are next to next week... but then, my mom did not raise dumb kids. :)
* Work sucks .. but thats not new.
* I had the first of the presentations for Linux Awareness .. poor audiance, but that will get better.
* I took a series of interviews last week and it made me feel so much better abt myself..

will come out with a better idea soon. :)

u know what, I had just realized what happy life is all about -- then I forgot. :))

more later
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and yes, Happy Friday :) ( I hereby patent it.. )